AKU TAK MAHU TERBIASA..

kadang kalau difikir..
aku lebih senang bersendirian..
kadang bila terlintas..
aku juga mahu teman senda..

sekarang apa yang tinggal..
aku punya beberapa teman gelap..
teman yang cuba menyelimut aku..
lagian aku masih memberikannya kesempatan..

bercerita mengenai bakal teman..
aku juga mempunyai seorang kawan..
aku kadangnya terfikir apa itu kawan..
kawan yang pelik bagi aku.. kerana baru sahaja dikenali..

apa yang pasti..
kawan atau teman..
buat masa ini..
aku lebih senang bersendirian..

aku putuskan..
kita perlu memutuskan hubungan teman dan kawan disini..
kerana aku tak mahu terbiasa..
aku tak suka terbiasa..
kerana kelak jika semuanya berubah..
aku penat dan lelah untuk menangis..

kamu bisa pergi sekarang..
tiada istilah kamu terbuku dalam..
hati aku..

terima kasih.. segala jasa biarkan ianya berdebu..
dan dibawa angin..

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WHY I HAVE N NEED A DIARY?

A diary is place where you write all your thoughts that came straight from your heart. A lot different from blog! A diary is usually locked and sealed, without letting any other souls to have their eyes set on every lines written honestly on every page of the diary. It is private and confidential, if you ask me. Well, there might be some secret thoughts of yours that you wouldn't want to share with anyone but only to yourself because only you would understand it. So yeah, a diary would be a superb companion.. p/s: so everything written on my blog n diary its only some of..so plz dont blame and ask me why the written is publish on my blog..because only me know what is writte..

RETURNED

What happened between us, what went wrong, who did who, what did what, this or that, me or you let it only be between us. We know what we have gone through. We know how hard and how easy it was. We tried everything we could to hold on. We failed, we failed. Time and place are just not on our side. The gravity is working against us. Everything is so hard and we keep hurting ourselves. We made up our minds and thought deep about what's best for us. and for now this is our only choice. For our own good. It is such a sad thing after everything we had. But sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do. This isn't a short term mind making. In fact it has been an on going thing. Like I said, we tried and tried until we couldn't anymore. So we just stop. Right there. i don't regret this. I never regret anything. We are moving forward for good. This just seems like the best thing to do right now. It just feels so right. Of course it is a sad thing that there's a full stop to it. B...

INDECISIVE-NESS

Oh my, indecisive is so me. That word so describes me. I am indecisive in almost everything ! and that is not good. I have been like that I think since forever. I can hardly make decisions for myself or other people. It can be as simple as where to lepak tonight or what to wear today ? Still sometimes it's hard for me. Like now, I have been changing my blog fonts from Verdana to Arial , from smaller to larger. I like Verdana but it seems too big, when I set it smaller, it's too small. Then I changed to Arial , looking at Arial is not as satisfying as Verdana . hmm I know it may be not a big deal to most of you but fonts is a big deal to me. If a blog has fonts that hurt my eyes or just not friendly reading, I won't read. I don't like too big or too small fonts. Then when it comes to where to eat or lepak , seriously don't ask me. My answer will be nothing but mana mana je lah. If I myself got that kind of answer I will be pissed off because the reason I asked i...

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