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I Ain't Seasonal!


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Two guys I really care for disappoint me in two days. These two guys are alike in some ways. One most common thing they two have is that they only come once in a while. They come when they want, and go whenever they wish to. I am so used to that.

That come and go thing is out of my control. But sometimes I do think of them as in I wonder how they are doing. I know I could get in touch with them if I want to but something forbids me for doing so. It's so complicated and I don't like complications.Funny that how I feel about them is similar too.

I am happy when they get in touch with me but it turns out pretty bad when that happens. They disappoint me with their words and actions. I mean why? We only get in touch like once in 3 months just to be upset ? I wish they would understand.At least appreciate that I still do entertain your calls, chats or texts. I could just ignore if I want to.

I don't want to be a kid but if you only get in touch and end up hurting me then I guess better don't get in touch at all.

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