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He dances himself away in his very own world of wonderland..


" Read my smiles and notice that I'm happy :)
Don't bother about me, i'm fine.
I finally know what I'm doing, I have found the tiny flickering spec of light~* "

Oh look at the date! It's almost April already?! How time flies so fast..I am currently trying to fill my empty hours by finishing my design of new room..Yeah, call me lazy..Until now, I only have one completed plan when there are actually 4 altogether.. This can't be happening to me.. Why am I such a lazy ass, lately? I kept wondering about that every single day.. My laziness mood took control over me! No kidding, when my eyes started to give a sign saying that it's tired and a good sleep is needed, I failed to fight against it.. Oh Eiz, time to wake up! Get back to reality, you're in 22 now! And your career is very very very important, you need to catch up with the others! No more playing! Ahhh, I hate myself for being too lazy to do my work, sigh.. When can I ever change?

So, apakan daya know I'm about to reach the end of my current dateline, already.. Run along with the time now ;) For the past few months, there are a lot of things has been going on.. From all the happy moments to those dark tortured times.. But hey, I've managed to pass it with a smile still strecthed on my face :) I'm still alive, yay! I'm a strong boy right? (Sie Embross always say that) ;) Every single thing of what I've went through will always be remembered and stay in my heart forever as the sweetness and bitterness of my treasured memories.. I know, by now, I may have done something stupid and outrageous.. I don't blame the others, I blame myself for that.. Yeah, this is me, if you don't understand me, just please don't try to even understand me, thank you.. I believe only a few close people of mine knew the real me and you know who you are ;) By any chance if I ever hurt anyone in particular, I just wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart..
And to you, naughty nasty Sir Azarudinamri.. Sorry for not telling you the BIG issue going on between me and my Vampy my Bear2 ;) Well, it's not like I don't want to but there isn't much to tell, what's past is past right? I don't hate you neither do I hate you so much before.. The both of you seemed to have always cheered me up with your smiles and jokes.. (is not a joke actually..itu cubit pinggang yang geli) Thanks for that ;) So, whatever happens you guys would always be my sugar and candy ;D I know there are a lot of people hate me for always giving you guys my attention but somehow, I just don't care.. I'm the type of person who doesn't hate people, why should I hate you guys when you guys don't even put the word hate towards me, as far as I know.. But take notes Sir, i dont want and ever want the same accident things like an before..like a in the situation between you, one, azim and me.. Im not ready and I dont want to have a hurt anymore!

And yeah, I have to admit being around with the all of you seems to bring colours to my dull life in here.. Aside from being around with my precious roommates, Sie Embross & Erfan Jalifur and my lovely ‘S’.. of course! Not to forget, Aziem and the rest of Eroul, Syuk, Aming, Joe, Adam, Abg Amir too :) I'm gonna miss all of you by the end of this year because im ready to facing Allah s.w.t Isya-Allah :'( And obviously, girlfriends and boyfriends of mine, I miss when we have those happy days together, getting along well and sharing laughter together..

My S and AL I'm glad that we're still okay after what we've been through.. For all that matters, dearest boy, I have never shut you completely in my life and I hope you do the same too.. A heart for you my S and AL :) Like I said, I may not be a person who seems to have the hatred feeling towards everything, I tend to be an easily forgiven person.. You can lie or backstab me or whatsoever, that's okay.. You're forgiven by me but you should know, does God forgive you? So yeah, I only do things what is best for me and what makes me happy.. And well, I can see that I'm pretty much happy now, thank you :)

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