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What happens when he's your Prince Charming, but you're not hi's Cinderella?

" Like a deadly poison, you're killing me
softly and silently without even realising it.."


Tonight, I have open my heart and tried my best to stay strong with an undying hope and infinite trust which I know somehow, in any day around, it will soon be shattered.. I wish it wouldn't happen but everything seems to make it worth to break it into pieces.. I was led to a broken door that may put me into misery for the rest of my life if I avoid from forcing myself to put it at its end or the situation stay as it is until it got me stuck forever.. All those hopes and dreams of mine flew away gently with the wind, little by little.. I couldn't chase after them, they were too fast in motion leaving me behind with a silent scream.. With every little drop of tear fell down my cheeks, a scene of you and me was pictured in my mind, beautiful memories were shared, making it easy for me to be blinded by your love and words.. How could I have in mind that you could be the best thing that has ever happened to me when in reality, you're more like a nightmare that has been lurking in the dark side of my life? Sigh :'( But I don't blame you entirely since you've always been invited in by me without any hesitation at all.. Foolish of me, took the risk and ended up with the feeling like a piece of broken glass stabbed deeply inside of me, this bleeds my fragile heart once more..



" Boy, what are you actually trying to do here?
I'm plain confused, what do you want from me?
Dear boy, I wish you could just be honest with me like you've always been.. "

xoxo
eizharanton~

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