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GUILTY CRY


"I actually wept last night..I received a call from Abie (my then secret lover)..
Early in the day,I sent him a text message asking how was he doing but to no reply,as expected..
Later on he called three times but I just let my phone rang,I didn't answer his calls..At round 11pm, an unknown number appeared on my phone screen,I answered and it was him..His voice was soft and mellow..I could barely hear him..The last time I talked to him was about 3 days ago..He let out everything last night..I was in a complete silent through out the conversation..(abie i dint know what to say)..All that he mentioned last are true,I ended everything between us..I left..I walked away from him and he was and still heart broken..From his voice last night I could feel how upset and down he was..(i x berniat wat u nangis)I've never seen or heard him like that before..He was always cheerful and joyful since the first time I knew him..After he hung up the phone,I cried out of guilt..I can't help it.This is the second time I did this to someone..To break the heart of someone who really cares and loves me is really awful..I didn't plan all these but it did..No matter how guilty I felt towards him,I couldn't turn back time..I've made up my mind about us..There's no way I could be with him..The situation that he is handling is just too much for me and I can't have that right now..I've tried to understand the whole situation that he is going through but I can't..I'm not strong enough as I thought I was..This may seem selfish and heartless but I have to put and end to it before it gets worse..I really do feel bad and sorry for him but I just have got to do what I've got to do..The one thing that I will never forget about him is how he always told me to smile no matter what..Abie,take care and yes,do smile like you always did.." E/S

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beb!
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ini satu permainan yg perlu u tempuh..
dugaan dan cabaran yg mematangkan diri u..
October 7, 2009 at 12:10 AM
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