LEE RUBEEN 22

i remembered when I was 10, it was after recess in school. The discipline teacher made us lined up in the hot sun and told us to clean up the canteen. Some kids didn't keep the canteen clean and we all were punished to do the cleaning job. Pick up the rubbish and stuff. After school, I told my parents about it and the next thing was Dad already wrote a letter of complain addressed to the school to warn them not to make me clean the canteen and stand in the sun. When I was 11, it was Maths class. The teacher told us to wrote the multiplications in the book. From multiply 1 to 12. I already knew all the multiplications by heart so Mom told me not to do it. I insisted of doing it since the teacher said she'll punish those who don't do it. Mom said Dad will go to school and meet the teacher and told me not to worry. So the next day, me with unfinished work came to school and I got punished and cried. Dad was late. He came right after I had my punishment. Dad talked to the teach...

I thought I made myself clear..very clear..crystal clear that I do not like what I see.. I hate when people are trying confident to speak in english with while using the broken language and british sound..you actually a jerk.. the conversations disgust me very much.. To me, it's indecent joke.. It just makes me feel sick in my stomach.. Maybe to anyone else it's harmless but anyone else is NOT me .. I don't know what you have in mind because what's happening does not sound or seem like you at all..i will remind you..if you are read this blog..and if you are not totally sure what i am say..just be shut up! and please don't say anything that will wrong way attention.. (baru mukadimah) Bismillah..now im start..Every single day now and then you make me so pissed.. In fact you made me pissed more every each day.. Now I have got to my limit.. You really crossed the line and I believe you is enjoying this and you would be happy for this.. How sweet ! I am not sorry for w...

On this very day, the question has been answered, as far as I know there's no one else fits with the descriptive clues that you have showered my mind with. Will I be psyched and overjoyed? or Will I feel the pain when tiny bits of shattered glasses stabbing my heart? Sincerely, I have no idea. They say, sometimes love is unconditional, I truly believe in that.But will I have the strength to have this kind of love? Yes, I do but will it be enough? Again, if the truth has opened its door, you can't back down, you have to face whatever obstacles that might come in front of you especially the jugdements! Sigh.. And yeah, It's a true lie if I try to deny that I didn't have any feelings or the most beautiful "L" word towards you. To tell you the truth, I'm just scared if I wouldn't be able to carry on with you throughout this whole wicked journey of ours. Who knows? Someday, I will hurt you or maybe you will do the same thing to me? I don't know. I hope ...

What happened between us, what went wrong, who did who, what did what, this or that, me or you let it only be between us. We know what we have gone through. We know how hard and how easy it was. We tried everything we could to hold on. We failed, we failed. Time and place are just not on our side. The gravity is working against us. Everything is so hard and we keep hurting ourselves. We made up our minds and thought deep about what's best for us. and for now this is our only choice. For our own good. It is such a sad thing after everything we had. But sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do. This isn't a short term mind making. In fact it has been an on going thing. Like I said, we tried and tried until we couldn't anymore. So we just stop. Right there. i don't regret this. I never regret anything. We are moving forward for good. This just seems like the best thing to do right now. It just feels so right. Of course it is a sad thing that there's a full stop to it. B...

I feel like the people around me are leaving me slowly but surely..Either they are close to me or not..I hate the most that lonely and losing feelings..I am not very independent..I am dependent at certain things sometimes..I think I will always be dependent.. It is sad knowing that my hang out friends which are my good friends are leaving pretty soon.. One of them have left few months ago..LIPAS left for Egypt..I felt his absence, I know we all do..I admire SYAFIQAH for the strength that she has being miles away from her beloved..She used to have him around her everyday..Of course she missed him a lot but she seems to be handling it pretty well..Even I am not that strong, I guess.. Next is FIQ..He'll be leaving for New Zealand..We just got pretty close for some reasons, and soon he's leaving too..Then it will be Aizat, Sabrina, Lina and Alice Chong..They'll be leaving for New Zealand soon..Maybe some of them think that they might not make it there but I am sure they would...

***To a very special SomeOne***

***Me n Some of Knew*** Eiz , get Cleo November issue.. Why should I ? Beli saja.. Okay I will but tell me why ? Ada me with boobs ;-) "And so he won.. I can't remember when was the last time I bought Cleo or any magazines.. I knew I have stopped buying it months ago just because I want to avoid some awkward feelings if by chance I would see him in it or any magazines for that matter..Well as he insisted me on buying November's Cleo and so I did..I was a little bit curious to be honest..Oh come on , he said 'with boobs' anyone would be dead curious..It could be him really with boobs or worse with others' boobs.. " FLIP FLIP FLIP HERE HE IS! He actually appeared three times in that magazine.. The other two were small pictures.. The same picture! No boobs , no nothing.. Ah no I am not even close to be amused or flattered when I saw this.. I just felt weird , awkward.. Jealous ? NOT . Funny , maybe . ;-P But I still don't get it.. Why would they want h...

I helped a friend for his assignment where he had to design a magazine advertisement..I guess I was the only one left and so he had me..It was not as easy as it looks like..Really..Posing is hard with the lights,and all..I had massive make up on my face..Although it didn't look like that 'massive' but it felt like it..I am not used to too much of make up..Luckily he did not need me to have hairspray on my hair..Well basically, I had no idea of what I was doing..I hope I didn't disappoint my friend..So here are some of the photos..I don't want to upload so much here and look like I am so full of myself..hehe.Noob shit lahh.. before before on the way 1st try some of ***the result*** Aftermath Mr Professional : darl, what did you say the photoshoot for? Mr Noob : for my friend's assignment, love. Mr Professional : you said, he had to design a magazine advertisement right? Mr Noob : yes.Why Sayang? Mr Professional : Then why darl bengisss? Model kena neutral.Tiada p...

*Azlina Hariry* she is my Vampiric Sister.. and the long hair is her best fwen..

I have know him for long years ago (not so).. Yes I dare say that I know him inside out.. I have seen him at his worst and also at the best state.. I have seen him cry and laugh.. I can even understand him without him saying a word.. When I first knew him, he was the nicest I have ever met.. I never thought such creature still exists in this cruel world.. First few weeks, he cared, minded me and was just nice.. At one point, I thought that he liked me.. For the first time I was wrong.. Truth was, he was just being himself.. He cares for me just like how he cares about his other friends.. That's just how he was, he is and I believe he will always be.. People may get the wrong impression of his actions, what he said and everything at first.. Once you get to know him, then you know.. I am thankful to have him as my friend.. Bloody hell, he is the only one who sticks.. We'll always have each other.. We both know that.. When you know who he is, you'll find that he's an easy ...

“It’s sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew..” At times I missed those boys that used to be in my life.. Either those involved with me, almost involved or not at all.. Then of course not of all them are still around.. It's sad that I don't keep boys for long.. Not that they are dead , out of the planet or what but we're like strangers now.. Some are there still, but of course things changed.. But I don't miss all of them.. There are a few who are not worth to be missed, who I want to forget completely.. I know I can't, they are already part of my life, like it or not.. When those who were good to me are gone, I felt their absence.. Some can't stay for long cause they might get hurt.. Yes, I have hurt a lot of them but I never meant to.. Sometimes I am afraid that who I have now will go too.. Because if he goes away, everything goes away.. I have gone through a lot of that and that was not fun at all.. It's unfortunate that when someone becomes m...

Sometimes I don't know what I want but I know what I don't want. All the time, I know what I like and what I don't like . I can't stand it when people . . . misspell my name. Seriously it is only a five letter word name..You really don't have to add and extra S at the end, misplaced the Z and H or even add and I in my name..Maybe it's not a big deal to some as it still sounds the same, but to me it's a huge deal.. misspell my last name. My name is short so people tend to say my last name..It happened since school days..I am flattered with that..But I can't stand when they changed Haranton to Hanton, Hantaro or Hantoo ? If misspelling my name is a big deal, my Pusaka name is a bigger deal. curse on Facebook. I don't have anything against people who speaks foul languages..But then, to curse on Facebook is pretty disrespectful..I mean Facebook is public, we don't need to bear all your emotional curses.. talk in the cinema. Okay I go to the cinema f...

is a DAMN! day..

My Lovely Hair before.. my sis say that im weird on Heavy Black Hair.. (0_O)? hmm.. Look at my hair It's getting longer and thicker day by day Wait , thick is not the right word Naah whatever who cares My friend asked me to cut my hair My fringe of course because they're way too long now Dah tutup mata dan blh buat juling katanya So now I'm thinking , should I cut my hair or not ? I don't think short hair will suit me because of my height of course It will definitely affect the way I look but the resort is Zembo Black hair.. Anyway , I went out with my friends today I bought some exercise books for myself for me to taking a MUET Okay wrong I didn't buy some books but a lot of books I know I have to do all of them and I'll try my best to do it Thanks to Kevin and Leo for paying for the books Leo finally decided to wear spectacles just like Kevin Before this he only wears his spectacles just to read but from now day on , he will wear his new spectacles that he wil...

I'm gladly to say dateline URTV 15 NOV is over! Yay, 4 more to go! I can do this, yes..wait! I'm in my lazy mood at the moment, damn! Supposedly I have to read the Ctu notes but look what am I doing now? Blogging? Haha..nice one, Eiz..eiz..sometime people say ish..ish..ish..ape nak jadi ni.. Music has got to be the best cure for boredom ;)..yup..im listening music just now.. And better yet, I've been homesick lately..I wanna go home at Kuantan :( Oh yeah, my family won't be stopping by to see me next week.. sigh.. I miss them so much! Well, at least I still have my best dearest UKSB mates to have fun with ;) Yesterday, we went to Q-Bistro (the gayboy area eeyucks!) just to hang out for dinner i mean midnight dinner, it was fun, indeed! :D because Ayariena and Ninierina do some of jokes..and we laugh together..hardly laugher.. while other people around are starring at us with jelingan maut..(gilo apo budok2 nie) Miss getting get-together time with all of UKSB .. Well, ...

1 2 3 4 GOOD NIGHT MARIPOSA..

he's name is ISSAH HENKI or EKI or KUNCI AYAM BETINA ISSAH I knew him since this year kot.. since i was 20 and he 19 years old.. OKAY he didn't tell me the real age back then.. he never did..and i kinda found out myself.. and now im 21 and hes 20..x kesah.. well yesterday we've some of conversational at OLD TOWN White Coffee.. EKI: Hey! ko lewat..so kne bnje aku minum EIZ: (aku buat mata) lah aku plak..umur semuda ku ini bnje mu minum? EKI:Well ko yg pksa aku dtg jgak dlm hujan ni.. EIZ:lalala..ok2..ko cri tmpt aku payung.. EKI: OLD TOWN White Coffee Pavilion.. EIZ: WAAAA!!! kekwat tmpt minum mu iteww..ok! EKI:ALah ko jgk nk dgr kisah ku nanti.. EIZ: ok aku x kesah..jnji ko cite hal ko ngan EX.. weyh! cam ade x kena.. EKI: what? ape yg x kena? EIZ: erm ko mcm ABG2 plak..riso aku bjln ngan ko.. EKI: SIAL!!! (some of topic will be hiding..because some of reason)