Skip to main content

I USED TO..

“It’s sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew..”
At times I missed those boys that used to be in my life.. Either those involved with me, almost involved or not at all.. Then of course not of all them are still around.. It's sad that I don't keep boys for long.. Not that they are dead , out of the planet or what but we're like strangers now.. Some are there still, but of course things changed..
But I don't miss all of them.. There are a few who are not worth to be missed, who I want to forget completely.. I know I can't, they are already part of my life, like it or not.. When those who were good to me are gone, I felt their absence.. Some can't stay for long cause they might get hurt.. Yes, I have hurt a lot of them but I never meant to..
Sometimes I am afraid that who I have now will go too.. Because if he goes away, everything goes away.. I have gone through a lot of that and that was not fun at all.. It's unfortunate that when someone becomes my past.. he will literally be my past.. No trace, no contact at all and that's awful.. It's like what we had, bad or good means nothing..

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

MY BLUE VANILLA CUPCAKES

You were not really there.You said we will have each other.The fact is,only you're the one who's having me and I was not really having you.It seemed like it was only me and in everything,I never really fancied one man show.That was what happened.You didn't take a look at that.I did everything I could and often I received negative feedback from you.We squabbled a lot.That's all we did and that didn't make any of us happy at all.To one point my heart just stopped from everything.It''s like it doesn't know you anymore.It just felt numb.Well,another one arrived.Made me smile,made me laugh until my tummy hurts.I am amused with his presence.Although it doesn't seem real,but it's just good enough for me.At the same time,you returned.Why now? Why do you have to return when things are all good for me.You came back when I need to the least.You were gone when I needed you the most.I guess time is not on our side.Nothing is.It shouldn't be so hard should...
Post a Comment
Read more

WHY I HAVE N NEED A DIARY?

A diary is place where you write all your thoughts that came straight from your heart. A lot different from blog! A diary is usually locked and sealed, without letting any other souls to have their eyes set on every lines written honestly on every page of the diary. It is private and confidential, if you ask me. Well, there might be some secret thoughts of yours that you wouldn't want to share with anyone but only to yourself because only you would understand it. So yeah, a diary would be a superb companion.. p/s: so everything written on my blog n diary its only some of..so plz dont blame and ask me why the written is publish on my blog..because only me know what is writte..
1 comment
Read more

MONSOON CUP at TERENGGANU

I had a rough week last week starting from Monday to Wednesday and it didn't stop up to Friday.. God knows how torturing it was.. I woke up kind of bad Monday morning.. went on at noon.. got a little bit emotional.. Previous posts prove it all..(if u guys still remember) My mind was beyond messed up.. Then I just stop and felt like I need to go to office and just clear my work.. So I did.. At around 11pm i went together with URTV Teams, En.Bad..abg ART..n some of.. This MONSOON trip has been planned for a month I think but it only happened lastweek.. Sadly it was without the people I planned with..(ruhaya) We reached TERANGGANU at around 12pm.. hung out for a while.. cam whoring.. OMG Abg.ART is a big time cam whore I tell you ! We waited until the sun sets.. Been so long in bus since I went to the Terengganu the weather are so bad.. is raining without non-stop.. It was very nightmare explorer.. Then we had dinner (around 3.am at R&R (Temerloh) at this I don't know how the...
Post a Comment
Read more