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I USED TO..

“It’s sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew..”
At times I missed those boys that used to be in my life.. Either those involved with me, almost involved or not at all.. Then of course not of all them are still around.. It's sad that I don't keep boys for long.. Not that they are dead , out of the planet or what but we're like strangers now.. Some are there still, but of course things changed..
But I don't miss all of them.. There are a few who are not worth to be missed, who I want to forget completely.. I know I can't, they are already part of my life, like it or not.. When those who were good to me are gone, I felt their absence.. Some can't stay for long cause they might get hurt.. Yes, I have hurt a lot of them but I never meant to..
Sometimes I am afraid that who I have now will go too.. Because if he goes away, everything goes away.. I have gone through a lot of that and that was not fun at all.. It's unfortunate that when someone becomes my past.. he will literally be my past.. No trace, no contact at all and that's awful.. It's like what we had, bad or good means nothing..

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