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RETURNED

What happened between us, what went wrong, who did who, what did what, this or that, me or you let it only be between us. We know what we have gone through. We know how hard and how easy it was. We tried everything we could to hold on. We failed, we failed.

Time and place are just not on our side. The gravity is working against us. Everything is so hard and we keep hurting ourselves. We made up our minds and thought deep about what's best for us. and for now this is our only choice. For our own good. It is such a sad thing after everything we had. But sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do. This isn't a short term mind making. In fact it has been an on going thing. Like I said, we tried and tried until we couldn't anymore. So we just stop. Right there.

i don't regret this. I never regret anything. We are moving forward for good. This just seems like the best thing to do right now. It just feels so right. Of course it is a sad thing that there's a full stop to it. But we try to look at the bright side, in a way it is good for both of us. We'll not have to go through the same arguments, the same routine and anything that matter. We'll hurt less and start to think more wisely. We gave our heart chances to do the thinking too much before, now we shall let our heads lead.

Some things will change. It's unavoidable but that's completely fine with me. We still have each other and care for each other. As for the other people, some may be leaving or not interested anymore but that doesn't bother me at all. I know who my friends are and they know me well enough. Some may judge, so be my guest.

i am someone who lives in the now. I go with the flow. If there's still hope, I let the future decides.

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