YOU TALKING BOUT WHAT?

Few days back, someone I know of, not really a friend, asked me : Eiz.. what do you think of me ? What's your first impression on me ? Do you think I can be your couple? ( he wall post me on Myspace ) Actually, all his life problems are discussed on his Wall..

Honestly, I didn't really have answers for all that.. This is because first and foremost, I don't really know him, second, I don't really judge on first impression and third, I don't give a damn.. So I just said that you're okay I guess and why? So he said that there are some people who he love are judging him negatively and bad mouthing him around.. He said again, they spread wrong stories about him and that bothered him very much..

The point of him telling me all these is because 'he said' those who did that are my friends on Myspace.. He told me who they are and I corrected him that they aren't really my friends.. They are only people I know too, just like himself.. So he got that wrong.. Well maybe they call themselves my friends, I don't know about that.. In fact I can't imagine myself still have friends like that..

I was in a great doubt when he said those are my friends.. Then he continued the story.. I was very much NOT interested in his stories.. Come on, that is so high school.. I seriously have no time to entertain such thing, not anymore.. I have gone through that he-said-this, he-said-that phase and I am so over that.. Of course there's still people bad mouthing me but screw them, I am used to that and I couldn't be bothered..I just got better things to think about.. I can't be wasting my time worrying about what people are saying about me.. There is a thing called 'life' that I'm trying to work on.. So back to him, I just told him one thing and hopefully he gets it, let them say what they wish to say.. Let them judge all they want.. They just like you so much to even bother to think and talk about you.. That won't change a thing about you, don't let what they think control you.. It's your life, your control..

p/s : people I know and friends are two very different thing..

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